This is a blog I have always wanted to go in length about and discuss and since I get asked a 678 questions about my dating life I thought I would share a little bit....
Dating in my industry is TOUGH TOUGH TOUGH. It requires a lot of trust, love, and NO INSECURITIES!!!
I've been single for 7 years, My last relationship was with my ex fiancé who I met right when I moved to La through a mutual friend, I was young... 22 years old, didn't really date much growing up, I was always a mover & shaker and a hard headed stripper just wanting to live life, make money and bang whatever bad boy I could get my hands on. When I met my ex I hate to sound so cliche but I immediately knew it was love at first sight, I said to myself " I'm gonna marry this man" we dated for 3 years while I was in the industry which had it's ups and downs. He went with me to the AVN"s, The Nightmoves award show in Tampa, a few porn parties, he bounced a couple of bachelor parties for me and my girlfriends but I never ever brought him to set because that is a HUGE way of NOT getting booked again by the director and he just didn't need to be there. We had our struggles like any couple would... he never threw anything in my face about my job to make me feel bad because he knew everything what he was getting himself involved in with me. A few times I would bring my girlfriends home for him to bang but it never interested him, he was a stubborn jew and wanted just me, which is cool but I was trying to be the fun loving nice girlfriend. 1 time when we were in Vegas I hired a Vegas hooker from 1 of the 1-800 Call ads and I left him fuck her, she was cute and I 'll never forget the entire time she kept thinking we were cops LOL After 3 years of dating we got engaged and I took a break from the industry.. I guess you can say I'm old fashion and didn't want to have to take off my stunner 8 caret engagement ring to have to go to work and get banged out.
Our relationship ended for varies reasons but the main reason which sounds weird was that I was like the female version of him.... kinda scary to a guy. To this day we are the best of friends and he will always hold a place dear in my heart. Attached is a candid picture of us from a wedding we attended for 1 of my cousins in NJ.
Now- I have many reasons for not jumping back in the saddle or having a boyfriend, As you can imagine it's so hard to date being a pornstar. I'm not looking for a fuck buddy because I can have that, Hell... I have sex with myself 2x a day and I don't have to put on makeup, brush my hair and sometimes don't have to brush my teeth for it to happen LOL What we don't get in the porn world is the emotional end of it... the connection with someone. Everyone wants to feel and be loved, held, kissed, cuddle with, go to the movies, have dinner, share stories and just be with. I'm at a point now where I'd love to date and find a guy to spend quality time with but I'm very picky, which nothing is wrong with that and I also have to protect myself, last thing I need is to date a creeper LOL
I'm sure about 90% of you reading this think you have my type of man I'm looking for figurerd out... and I can guarantee your probably wrong. I honestly don't have a type... My ex was a short, husky jew... I dated a blonde stripper when I was in my 20's and was committed to Tuna Town and being a box muncher for 5 months of my life... I've also dated black men, puerto ricans, 1 Korean and a Israeli. Needless to say I've been with every color under the rainbow and like I've always said... "love doesn't have a gender, race, or religion". Attached are some of my ex's who I managed not to erase all evidence of.
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Last year living in Vegas I went on 5 dates and nothing went any further than a first date... I'm starting to think I should write on book on the disasters of 1st dates. Vegas is a tough city to date in... Everyone has a vice I feel like... Big drinker, degenerate gambler, fuck boys, Hosts and of course the never ending amount of pimps that still control the city. 2 of my dates were Cops- which is a little to close to home for me + cops in Vegas are the most miserable people I have ever met, 1 was a bartender who had a ego the size of my ass and was a huge closet alcoholic & gambler, #4 was a Blackjack dealer at the Cosmopolitian who was pimping out the carpet walker girls late nights and working with the pimps in the city on the side, explains why he lived in a condo on the strip and drove a Bentley- No blackjack dealer is making that kind of money in this city, My last date was a host at 1 of the hottest nightclubs in the city and I felt was just trying to use me for my following and connections plus he was originally from Boston and a die hard Patriots fan so even if we did start dating we probably would have killed each other by football season LOL
A lot of Men are very intimidated by my line of work she is completely understandable...Imagine that convo over Thanksgiving dinner at the family's house how your girlfriend gets banged out by 11inch Lexington Steele for a living and you have to help her shave her deep booty crack before the shoot so everything is smooth... AWKWARD!!!
I know who I am and outside of what I do for a living I live a very normal, healthy lifestyle. I live in Las Vegas and LOVE it beyond words, I'm a gym rat and love to workout, I practice Bikram Hot yoga 5 times a week, I have a sweet French Bulldog puppy who is my world that I love taking to the puppy parks and all over town and even when I travel since I have him registered as a service dog. I'm a sports nut and HUGE Ny Giants football fan so I go to a lot of games during the season. I enjoy doing typical girl things... Spa Days, Shopping, going to the movies, I love going out to eat... I will eat anywhere there is a menu LOL and of course just being a homebody.
Maybe I'm still in that stage I was in my late teens early 20's but with just a better career, bigger home, new city and new friends. I'm always gonna be a hustler nothing will ever change that, my work, health, family and Icon ( my frenchie) will always be #1.
I hope many of you can enjoy seeing what it's like from my perspective and not assume the many crazy rings I hear about myself or read on the web, your hearing it straight from the source :)
Now- I have many reasons for not jumping back in the saddle or having a boyfriend, As you can imagine it's so hard to date being a pornstar. I'm not looking for a fuck buddy because I can have that, Hell... I have sex with myself 2x a day and I don't have to put on makeup, brush my hair and sometimes don't have to brush my teeth for it to happen LOL What we don't get in the porn world is the emotional end of it... the connection with someone. Everyone wants to feel and be loved, held, kissed, cuddle with, go to the movies, have dinner, share stories and just be with. I'm at a point now where I'd love to date and find a guy to spend quality time with but I'm very picky, which nothing is wrong with that and I also have to protect myself, last thing I need is to date a creeper LOL
I'm sure about 90% of you reading this think you have my type of man I'm looking for figurerd out... and I can guarantee your probably wrong. I honestly don't have a type... My ex was a short, husky jew... I dated a blonde stripper when I was in my 20's and was committed to Tuna Town and being a box muncher for 5 months of my life... I've also dated black men, puerto ricans, 1 Korean and a Israeli. Needless to say I've been with every color under the rainbow and like I've always said... "love doesn't have a gender, race, or religion". Attached are some of my ex's who I managed not to erase all evidence of.
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Last year living in Vegas I went on 5 dates and nothing went any further than a first date... I'm starting to think I should write on book on the disasters of 1st dates. Vegas is a tough city to date in... Everyone has a vice I feel like... Big drinker, degenerate gambler, fuck boys, Hosts and of course the never ending amount of pimps that still control the city. 2 of my dates were Cops- which is a little to close to home for me + cops in Vegas are the most miserable people I have ever met, 1 was a bartender who had a ego the size of my ass and was a huge closet alcoholic & gambler, #4 was a Blackjack dealer at the Cosmopolitian who was pimping out the carpet walker girls late nights and working with the pimps in the city on the side, explains why he lived in a condo on the strip and drove a Bentley- No blackjack dealer is making that kind of money in this city, My last date was a host at 1 of the hottest nightclubs in the city and I felt was just trying to use me for my following and connections plus he was originally from Boston and a die hard Patriots fan so even if we did start dating we probably would have killed each other by football season LOL
A lot of Men are very intimidated by my line of work she is completely understandable...Imagine that convo over Thanksgiving dinner at the family's house how your girlfriend gets banged out by 11inch Lexington Steele for a living and you have to help her shave her deep booty crack before the shoot so everything is smooth... AWKWARD!!!
I know who I am and outside of what I do for a living I live a very normal, healthy lifestyle. I live in Las Vegas and LOVE it beyond words, I'm a gym rat and love to workout, I practice Bikram Hot yoga 5 times a week, I have a sweet French Bulldog puppy who is my world that I love taking to the puppy parks and all over town and even when I travel since I have him registered as a service dog. I'm a sports nut and HUGE Ny Giants football fan so I go to a lot of games during the season. I enjoy doing typical girl things... Spa Days, Shopping, going to the movies, I love going out to eat... I will eat anywhere there is a menu LOL and of course just being a homebody.
Maybe I'm still in that stage I was in my late teens early 20's but with just a better career, bigger home, new city and new friends. I'm always gonna be a hustler nothing will ever change that, my work, health, family and Icon ( my frenchie) will always be #1.
I hope many of you can enjoy seeing what it's like from my perspective and not assume the many crazy rings I hear about myself or read on the web, your hearing it straight from the source :)
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